Back on the Horse

Might as well just start now, I guess?

It’s been about a year and a half since I posted here and even longer since I’d last ridden Stagecoach 400. I’d been waiting for the right time to do either one of those things; but waiting for “perfect” usually leads to a big, fat mess so here we are.
Truth be told, it’s probably the right time for both, even if it wasn’t how I’d imagined it. I’m really enjoyed my life these days (more on that in another post) and this all came together *just right*

I was “undertrained” in the conventional sense; the first day (89 miles of hard terrain on a heavily loaded bike) was the hardest riding I’ve done in quite a while. But I felt… fine? Sore, to be sure, but I knew the drill about hydration & self care, etc, and really enjoyed myself. So looking back on it now, I wasn’t really undertrained at all. I came out of 2-1/2 days lighter in mind and with renewed excitement to press forward on new bikepacking route concept I’ve been thinkering on for a while, and also for a good number of off-bike projects I’ve got in the hopper. Reminded once again to just start now.

Protopia

We have more possibilities available in each moment than we realize.
— Thich Nhat Hanh

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Thomas Mountain seen from Sunset Trail, Cowbell Alley, Idyllwild Calif.

Imagine if we’re heading toward a time when tomorrow is better than yesterday?
It sounds cool right?
The past 4 months have been topsy-turvy– but everywhere you look you’ll see progress, I think, if you look for it.

I was recently interviewed by a young guy who’s doing academic research on the topic of homeschooling, particularly what we can learn from it during the pandemic. The questions he asked me and the thoughts they provoked pretty much made my day.
And, important background: The brave new world of coparenting my children currently involves home schooling. Not distance-learning per se; but home schooling.

The Goal (okay, my goal)
— most concisely, I want to raise children who can solve interesting problems as adults.
I could blather & pontificate on what it means to solve interesting problems but I’ll save that for another post or the ears a random stranger someday.

“Dad, did you know the school system was pretty much designed to train people to work in factories during the Industrial Revolution?”
— boy #001, age 10
“I sorta did know this, yes…. where did you hear about it?”
“I saw it on a YouTube channel I follow about education.”

“Dad, did you know that frequent small breaks are important and can help you learn more?
“Well that makes sense to me… where did you hear about that?”
“I heard it on the Wow in the World podcast.

The promise of a more comprehensive, open-ended curriculum for these boys sounds very appealing to me.
Satisfy curiosities.
Indulge passions.
Ask hard questions.

Challenges
Home schooling is hard, so far as I can tell. I super sucked at home schooling this last week, and hell it feels like that’s all I did for the week. Not much progress on the work front. I’m hitting a steep learning curve, it seems.

Money– the work front is the elephant in the living room. How can we work less?
I’m not out of the woods on this topic, yet, but I’m encouraged through frugality, practicality, and full application of my own skill set both at work, and at home.
— interestingly, the lifestyle changes we have been making are coincidentally-or-not more responsible environmental decisions, too. So that’s a good indicator, too, I hope.

Socialization– I do feel the supposed problem of “socialization” is to home schooling what “protein” is to people who don’t eat animals– it’s just not really an issue if you’re actually bought in to the program. It’s overstated. That said, it’s perhaps a little more challenging with Covid, but I have a lot of faith in pods and connectivity. I also think that where there’s passions there’s socializing; kinda like those of us who ride bikes all know each other, or really anybody with fire in the belly about just about anything has a way of finding friends who are into these things, too.

— Thanks to my friend Jenn for this add on:
it’s like music, not like traveling:

 

 

 

Dry Dock

“The hardest work happens in dry dock”
— Sam Wineburg

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Painters tape, white paint bases, and painting supplies are hot sellers right now, according to the local hardware store.
It’s a good time to work on the spaces we live in.

What if our next big voyage takes place at home?

a·lign·ment /əˈlīnmənt/

“The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up.”
— Paul Valery

 

There’s often more possibility in a moment than we realize–
Realize: “cause (something desired or anticipated) to happen.”
Or, to make real.

Many of us are imagining our secret dreams right now.
I think a lot of them are in alignment.
More alignment means more possibility, maybe that’s a big deal.

Realizing our secret dreams requires gaining some clarity about what’s possible.
What if anything’s possible?

Years ago, I chased a secret dream and found alignment with others in the Idyllwild community of trailbuilders, riders, small business owners, and my family. We started the bike shop, Hub Cyclery, and enjoyed 6 years of satisfying business. It was a heckuva lot of fun. I’ve since chased other secret dreams; they’ve always had this alignment theme.

Where are our alignments now? From here, what’s possible?
What’s the best that can happen?

 

Adventure is the work of life

If play is the work of children, does adventure become the work of life?

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“I admire the zeal you have for the work of life.” — this was one of the best, most lasting compliments I’ve ever been given. It was maybe a couple years ago, by an older gentleman whom I respect very much. The work of life… what is it?
— these were my thoughts on a bike ride today:

I realized today while talking with a friend, adventure is not just outside. Adventure is also in the ordinary experience– Adventure in relating to others. Adventure in faith. Adventure in work. Adventure in being silly. Adventure in myself, juxtaposed in the day a little differently than I’ve ever experienced before– adventure as a father on Saturday, or on a birthday. Or in February of 2020.

There is no future adventure. (there is only this) Writing this over coffee– adventure.

The mind of a child burns bright. Are we just outdated children?

 

Clearing The Plate– Stagecoach 400

“You’ve gotta clear your plate before you can fill it back up again”
— Idyllwild 92549

We created the Stagecoach 400 bikepacking route & annual event in late 2011 after a time of particularly adventurous rides. Dave, my former wife Mary, and I used to explore by bike– each ride more ambitious than the previous in terms of physical undertaking as well as risk; going as deep into the backcountry as we could find, off beaten paths and linking together areas of interest we’d gleaned from aerial maps, hiker’s message boards, and beta passed to us from the old guys we’d come to know, in Idyllwild. There were no known “bikepacking” routes and we enjoyed looking at any paper maps we could get our hands on, particularly the out of print ones that’d possibly show a road bed or trail that had since “disappeared.”
We laced together rides from one place to another by way of the most interesting, *best* way possible. Best was defined by what we most wanted to ride– either for a good pedal, or resupply, or view, or what have you.

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Dave, circa 2008

We thought it was best to ride hard stuff on singlespeeds, for reasons we justified at the time (“simplicity!” “reliability!”) and while I don’t necessarily believe in that anymore, it sure made us strong riders. Mary was– and forever will be– the first woman to race and complete the Tour Divide. This was at a time when “bikepacking gear” barely existed; and we certainly didn’t have it. Bikepacking gear was rare, and we couldn’t really afford it anyway, so we made do with being creative and being punk as f*ck.
GPX tracks? Same same.

What we were doing
We were lucky to have a blank slate. We were able to do whatever we wanted. 
Being a California transplant– a former Chicago boy– I wanted to show off Southern California’s diversity of culture, and the mashup of mountains, deserts, and ocean…
Arizona Trail Race was the stuff of legend at the time– a tough ride in a tough landscape getting ridden by tough riders. And the Tour Divide was very much a thing– the longest race in the world at more than 2700 miles, with changing scenery and the sublime ability to lend a long view perspective on history, culture, and self. Why not make a big, high quality ride of our own?
I felt we had a route that’d weigh in on the national level, an wanted an event that’d complement that– and California didn’t yet have a route of its own.
So, Scott Morris, Matthew Lee: you are part of this too.

We had some minor guiding principles
— show what we ride ourselves
— bring people to SoCal, share our mountains, deserts, and oceans with them
— bring people together. Facilitate meaningful experiences & friendships
— disrupt the record seekers
— keep it fresh
— and of course… a party is best thrown in too small a space.

Remember the race that predated the Tour Divide? The one that didn’t include the section of the CDT north of the border, in Canada?
Well, let’s just say that the management style of that race inspired me about how *not* to do things. I felt it was important to move on from that way of thinking. Fewer rules, if any. We would prioritize the experience over the records; the people over the way things have always been done.

I feel we’ve accomplished these goals well. I’m not sure I have much more to give to the route, and I don’t know the route can give much more to me, either.

Long may they run
I’m proud of what we’ve done. Also, I’m content to let it be.
Just as we had a blank canvas to design the Stagecoach 400, I feel it’s important to recognize the future potential of what the ride might become– and I don’t know what that could be, yet. I likely won’t be a part of it.
I am excited to do something else now; though I don’t know what that might be, yet, either… but I’m definitely going to be be an active part of *something* that sets me on fire.
By letting the ride go into new hands, it can continue to evolve, and so can I.

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I’m excited to help Meg Knobel take over the route. (Hard Work & Honest Sweat)
She’s got the love for riding it requires, and, if I can say it without too much implicit pressure– an open mind that the route deserves.

 

The Blind Spot Continuum

“Do you want me to tell you what you want to hear, or would you like my opinion?”

It depends on what we’re after.
Sometimes we just want a boost. Other times we need to know what’s right.
When we align ourselves with yes-men we stifle our capacity for objectivity, but gain confidence, and comfort.
When we welcome divergent opinion we risk embarrassment and discomfort, but gain perspective and truth.